Now that there is a definite date, I feel a certain
relief. There is a written plan for my
physical process through this now in the binder I set up (surprise! My organizing
gene kicked in.) to keep track of all this stuff. I realize now that the binder was/is a very
necessary tool. I have a quote from Mike
Dooley speaking as The Universe www.tut.com on
the cover. It reads:
Before this odyssey ever began,
There was you, your best friends, and
Wide-eyed curiosity
Among you about
Who would be the first to leap,
The first to forget, the first to kiss, the first to tell,
The first to fall, the first to get back up,
And the first to remember that it all began
With a dare:
To love in spite of it all.
Is that
you, Mergatroid?
The
Universe
Which is good in many ways, because I keep forgetting that
that’s the place I really want to be living from. It’s like Jess and I are living in two
different worlds or realities. In one
everything is just as it’s always been, and in the other I have cancer. Some days are spent entirely in the first,
and others entirely in the second. That
it’s taken so long to actually get a plan and a surgery date turns out to be
something of a blessing in disguise, giving us time to get used to a new
reality, and also giving us a respite from that reality when it gets to be
much.
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ReplyDeleteSat Nam Donna,
ReplyDeleteI just saw your blog, I think of you and Jess fondly and send you much love as you go through your journey,please remember all your kundalini tools such as the healing meditation ra ma da sa and i hope you see Hari Das for support, big hugs from Dalip Claire
Sat Nam, Dalip --
ReplyDeleteTrust the practical French woman to remind me of what should have been so obvious -- thank you! We took yoga teacher training because we loved the practice and wanted to know more about the ancient teachings. It had never been our intention to teach, and when things started getting really tight, we dropped the practice altogether, and lost track of Hari Das. We started playing the CDs last night as a way to ease back into it, and will dig out our old manuals to resume some part of the practice. Thank you, again. Sending you love and blessings, Namaste, Donna